Sucked In

I didn't want this to happen,
I didn't want to feel this way,
I don't want to be snotty,
I never wanted to see this day.

I always thought they were stupid,
for spending so much on a shoe,
for buying those fancy handbags,
Never wanting to feel blue.

They would buy those coach purses,
and those expensive emu shoes,
I would frown and say that's stupid,
That is NOT what I would choose.

Now a few years later,
I want all of that so bad,
I want to be so cool,
I want to join the fad.

I continue to save my money,
for a stupid small purse,
That costs all my birthday money,
I feel I have a curse.

I buy those emu boots,
with all my christmas money,
I try so hard to fit in,
They don't care, they think I'm funny.

My former friends now don't like me,
They say I am too material,
I say forget them I want to be cool,
They can be losers; I'll be imperial.

I will be so pretty,
and join the in-crowd,
Everyone will think I'm witty,
I will finally be proud.

But, It didn't quiet happen,
the way I wanted it too,
The in-group didn't like me,
They said I just wasn't cool.

So, now I have no friends,
my former ones won't take me back,
I am now lonely and pathetic,
I have all that they lack.

Maybe they are just jealous,
That I have so much more,
They probably secretly wish,
They could shop at the cool store.

Nevermind I am making excuses,
I'm so mad I didn't win,
I am truely jealous of them,
for I was the one who got sucked in.

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Dedicated to my former friend who did get sucked in. I pity her.