A Happy Poem! yeah right...

They say to write a happy poem.
A happy poem will make you feel better, a happy poem will just wonderful they say.

But what if I'm not happy?
What if, i can't be happy?
I could fake being happy,
that makes other people happy.
But what about me?
Does it matter what i feel?
How my life isn't a happy case,
how i don't go to sleep at night waiting for the next day and how its going to be more miserable then the next.
Not looking forward to seeing people that were once friends of some sort.
Always losing friends, always not sure what a friend is, not sure if i have any friends.

When I'm lost, when I'm hurt, when I'm left out in the dark, to be pushed around, to on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you. To be happy?
Thats just out of the question,
there is no happiness in my world.