Nick....

Nick....
What more can i do?
You ask me to help you.
But how can I?
when i feel as if my life is a lie.
I have given up so much hope,
Now how am i suposed to cope
With the fact
that i can finally pay you back
The thing i fear from helping you
Is the love that i once felt for you
I know it can never be
It took me time to see
but why i am i so afraid of this
tis not like we will ever kiss
or maybe even ever see each other
should i even bother?
But i will help you
and maybe see through
the fog i made round myself
when i left myself with no one else
I let myself back into coldness
i even started to care less
What can i do?
Try and help you?
end up falling for you again?
i think enough is said.
i'll help you and you'll help me
try and remember that we will never be.