When you scream out in pain
I want to cry alone in the dark
When you get hurt by him
You try to hide it, but I see past that
I don't want to disappoint you
Like i have many people
I can see in your eyes
that you are worrying about me
And that makes me want to lie
Tell you that I'm alright
Tell you that I'm free of pain
Tell you that there's no rain
I'm lying again
And you cant tell
I want to be in control
Tell my soul to fly freely
This wont happen
I'm no fool
So Mom I'm gonna lie again,
this cut, its from a table
my face is pale I know
these chains are not holding me down
black is the new pink
everybody has lighters
cigarettes are not for me
Only the truth remains inside of me
And you will never know
On the inside i am dying
On the outside I'm alright
Its only a matter of time now
Before this depression drives me to suicide
I know this isn't that good, but my mother is in a wheelchair, and tries to live a normal life. She cant feel past her waist, but has muscle spasms in her upper leg. She has to scream from the pain. Her boyfriend/husband is always yelling and getting pissed. She is so stressed out. So I lie to her bout how i feel all the time. I feel REALLY guilty because she is so nice, and caring toward me. But anyways please comment and vote thanks!
