You Thought You Had Me

That knife, I call it my friend
I use it all the time
It takes away the pain
The pain that you've caused
It is the only thing that understands me
It is the only thing that helps
You left me and broke my heart
And you didn't tell me why

That rope, I call it my friend
It seems to get closer to me
My breath seems to lessen
And I can't see anymore
It holds me tight and won't let go
You held me tight then let me go
You left me and broke my heart
And you didn't tell me why

That gun, I call it my friend
It's always ready to go
Ready to go when I am
Pull the trigger, and I'll be gone
Away from this awful place
This awful place that I call home
You left me and broke my heart
And you didn't tell me why

Those pills, I call them my friends
Pop them in at anytime
Whenever I feel that awful pain
That pain at the bottom of my heart
You took my heart
You stole it and wouldn't give it back
You left me and broke my heart
And you didn't tell me why

I wish the clock would just turn back
Turn back that awful time
The time I spent with you
The time you made me feel like shit
Taking my heart and treating it like an old toy
Throwing me away and then taking me back
You left me and broke my heart
And you didn't tell me why

No one to help me
No one to stop me
No one to take away the pain
Almost going, but not wanting to leave
But I close my eyes and lay down my head
And drift away and dream
You left me and broke my heart
And you didn't tell me why

I lay on a dark room
Lying all alone
Cutting myself with that knife
Choking myself with that rope
Taking that gun from my dresser
Popping all those pills
You left me and broke my heart
And you didn't tell me why

The poison fills my body
Sending me to shock
The blood runs down my arm
Sending pain through my chest
The rope stops my breathing
The gun stops my heart
You left me and broke my heart
And you didn't tell me why

Thinking in my head
Should I do this to myself?
Is he really worth this?
Is he really worth all this pain?
Tearing my heart in two
Tearing my feelings apart
You left me and broke my heart
And you didn't tell me why

I scream inside from all the pain
The pain that tore my life apart
But I sit in a dark room
And the thought of you comes to my head
As a tear appears in my eyes
You know...to me you are dead
You left me and broke my heart
And you didn't tell me why

You treat me like shit
And expect to get me back
But it's not going to work this time
Because I have come to my senses
I want to live so the though of suicide drifts away
I now know I have something to live for
You left me and broke my heart
And you didn't tell me why

The thought you of leaves my head
And I start to think clear
I throw away that knife that cut me
I throw away that rope that chocked me
I put that gun back in my dresser
And put those pills away
I left you and broke your heart
And shut you out of my life

Brandy 2004 ©