Dew dripping off the red velvet petals
Like the blood dripping from my lifeless wrist
Cant move, wont move, afraid to move
People around me starting to cry
Like the rain falling from the dark gray sky
I want to turn back time and start all over
Stand in a time machine and take back everything
Talk about everything that was driving me insane
But I held it all in and now it's eating at me like a dark black hole
A knife beside my bed teasing me
Telling me to do it, do it
Nothings okay, your life is over, do it
This is all you can do now, do it
Laughing inside, teasing, grinning, do it
Nothing to do now, but lay on the cold floor
And watch the floor fill up with blood
My eyes are closing, I'm blacking out
The pain is too much, I can't go to sleep
Because if I fall asleep I fear I may not wake back up
I'm getting scared, and growing more scared every moment
Then reality strikes and I feel really bad for making everyone cry
so I grab that knife and slowly slice away at my flesh a little more until I don't have the strength to move anymore
And I have to die because I've committed suicide
And feel really bad for I have to die
I wish this was all a dream and I could just wake up and take back everything
Who thinks about suicide at 15?
Why do it? What do I have to live for?
A lot more than I thought about
Reach for the phone...call 9-1-1
But it's too late, I've chosen my fate
I think I am going to hell, this is against what I believe in, this is the end, all I wanted was a friend
I've chosen my destiny, but will you still love me?
Don't cry, it's not your fault I choose to die, my life was all a lie, to do this all over a guy
What was I thinking?
I had a lot to live for
My parents were wonderful, they believed in me, and stuck with me, every step I took they were there with me
Wanting to wake up and go back
I try to stop thinking about the pain
It's to much, it's making me feel worse
Open my eyes and see the paramedics, overhear them say "this girl is going to die"
Why, save me, help me
I've changed my mind
I want to live
Why go through the pain, why?
It's stupid I should've thought, I could've fought the pain inside, that led me to commit my own suicide
I should have thought, this pain is much worse than anything I have ever felt
Wake up, go back, open up
This is much worse
My heart stops, I stop breathing
Nothing we can do now
And my life is over, just like that
In the blink of an eye
And I had to die because I choose suicide
All over a stupid guy
All over a worthless guy
At 15
