Fade Away

I cry blood
I bleed tears
Som much hurt I've caused
So much pain has been felt over the years
Cuts on my wrist
Blood stains my room
A smile on my face hides it all
An adittude of depression
I really don't care
Suicidal thoughts from which I need escape
A happy face and good acting skills are all I need
Need to hide away what I am feeling
Remember all my friends
You tell me to live for them
But why? friendships end
They too cause so much pain
I've got nothing, can't you see that
Nothing to look forward to
Nothing at all
People round me continuously fighting
Trying to tell me what's right
and what I'm supposed to do
I'm not listening
I'm sick of it all
Can't you just let me be
Let me fade into nothingness alone
Don't try to save me
I've already fallen too far
Just let me be
I'm not telling you what to do
What to say
or how to act
Leave me alone, let me be
Don't make me cut
No, not tonight
I'm trying to stear my life away
Away from the knife
and the mistakes I've made
They'll always haunt me
but hopefully they'll fade away