Another Lie

You make me smile
You make me laugh
But even you can\'t change my past
You want to help
Still I push you away
I don't want to get close
Though I already am
See how confused I am
The rain keeps on falling
I'm stuck inside my dying soul
Will ever break free
From this pain and misery
I know I've made so many mistakes
And I have a lot of regrets
But why must they torture me
Slowly pushing me over the edge
I've turned to the knife so many nights before
Why think tonight any different?
You're all trying to save me
Yet you've watched me fall
I'm now in too deep
I'm dragging that metal across my wrist
Oh, how perfect it feels
Seeing the crimson takes me away from reality
I feel so happy if only for a second
You walk in
Find me in this state
A mix of blood and tears cover me
You run to my side and ask why
I can't answer you
I don't know why
You hold me in your arms
my face wet from crying
You try to comfort me
but I'm not listening
I'm lost in thoughts
Thoughts of death
How I wish you hadn't found me
I would have left this earth by now
I smell you
I feel your breath
Still it feels so surreal
What did I do
I don't remember anything
Why are you here?
I see blood smeared across your shirt
You smile and tell me it'll be okay
I nod
Thinking in my head "it will never be okay"
but still you feed me another lie