Missing listening
To each painful word
Missing hearing
Of your saddened world
Missing waiting
Until your pain washed away
Though you didn’t stay long enough
For me to see that day
Longing for happiness
That you never had
Longing for love
To have you back
Longing for an angel
To give us wings
So I could give you everything
Leaving my friends
To be with you
Leaving school behind
To try and get you through
Leaving my world
To get to yours
Leaving my life
To open new doors
Needing something
Anything to have
Needing a miracle
Just to see you laugh
Needing a magic trick
That couldn’t be learned
To mend you soul that was filled with hurt
Wishing for someone
Who could always be there
Wishing that God
Could see you suffering here
Wishing for everyone to open their eyes
For just a moment, so maybe they’d realize
Regretting I didn’t always come
When you needed to speak
Regretting not always being there to wipe the tears from your cheek
Regretting not giving it my all
By letting you let yourself fall
Knowing I was wrong
To leave you all alone
Knowing I messed up
I didn’t give you enough hope
Knowing I should have never thought
It would be ok
Knowing I’m the reason
Your not here today
Realizing I’m the reason
That suicide did win
Realizing I could have saved you
But let the devil in
Realizing I’ll never see you, ever again
I’m the reason, you let yourself sin
Remembering the morning I awoke, but you didn’t
Remembering the picture, painted on each wrist
Remembering I wasn’t always there
While you were living in despair
Remembering I left you that night
Not knowing I could have saved your life
Remembering your face, stone cold and pale
Remembering the note, where you said it wasn’t my fault, and that you know I did care
Remembering now, crying
Thinking only of dying
How I now need someone
That wont leave my side, how I left yours
Remembering how its my fault you died
I was the razor that forced your goodbye
Thinking of how I could have been there
Thinking of how I wish you were here
I know you could still be
If I took away your misery
Thinking of how I let you die
Your fragile soul gone, by suicide
