I am about to do do it again. Taking the knife and closing my eyes this time i won't miss. Puting the sharp blade next to my heart thinking about all the problems I am haveing now with my family. I feel the cold touch of the steel. In my heart the blade goes blood all over the place. My blood on the floor nothing more to live for my soul gone for god or the devil to take I hope its god who gets to it first so I can tell him my story and why I did this. GOD HELP ME NOW AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE GIVE ME A SECOND CHANSE TO HELP MY FAMILY PLEASE.
