Living to die

Why continue on with this
this pointless life
this meaningless existance
why keep living day after day
suffering crying
with nothing going my way
why keep going through this pain
putting up with it all the time
it all just stays the same
i just dont see why
whats the point in living
when all you do is cry
when we die is there something more?
is there something after this?
anything else in store?
why are we dying to live when were just living to die?
i dont see the point
why should i even try?
its all pointless to me, i guess you dont understand
i HAD to end this
so come and hold my dying hand
my pain is soon to fade away
so dont you worry
my spirit will watch over you every day
dont cry for me once ive died
ive done everything to make my life worth it
believe me, ive tried
but in the end its just not worth all the tears
if anything i learned that
after all these painful years
so once ive left, do not weep
im resting in peace now
in the earth, so very deep
so if theres one last thing i can ask you to do
please just remember
that i will always love you

(yeah...love....suicide.....same thing....by the way i'm not suicidal)