I haven't turned to this for a while
You've kept me from it for so long
Yet this time you brought it upon me
This feeling of depression that cuts into my soul
This time it only has one relief
Funny that
My only relief from this pain
Is what you don't want me to do
You don't want me to find out what you've done
What have you done?
Can you tell me the truth
Will it stop me
or will it make me dig deeper
You said you'd never do this
You said it would be the only this to tear us apart
So did you do it or are these things lies
I need to know the truth
It's tearing away at my heart
I know I love you
But love is trust
and do I truely trust you?
I'm so confused and I feel like shit
Tonights the night I want to end it all
With a razor I'll take my life
Blood will stain your thoughts
I will be but a memory
Nightmares will flood your dreams
I will drain your happiness as you took mine
Life isn't really precious
and sure we only live once
But why live in all this pain
Scared of what's to come
Suffocated by regrets of the past
Still full of so much confusion
I should have been there that night
Should have been holding you tight
Instead I was hours away
A family trip
Did you think I wouldn't find out
Did you mean it at the time?
Did you ever think of me?
Or are you just like the rest
Am I just a faded memory
Am I just like an illusion to you
Yeah I know I am ugly
And I know I am messed up
But did I ever mean anything to you
Cause you meant the world to me
That's why I must leave tonight
I've f*#ked up so many times
So now it's your turn
You can live the rest of your life in guilt
Cause I'm not going to say I'm sorry
and It's not your fault
No I'm not going to lie
I'm not sorry
and it is your fault
When people look for someone to blame
You're their boy
I'm sure this is right
I love you so much
Nothing you can do or say is going to change me
or what I plan to do
You're going to ring tonight
should I answer
Or should I ignore you
Try and forget about you
I can't forget
I loved you more that life
I still do
I guess this is my final goodbye
So long
I hope you're happy
You broke me and tore me apart
Goodbye
