I was so young,
The day you left.
I didn't understand,
That you weren't coming back.
Death wasn't supposed to happen,
To people like you.
It felt like a nightmare,
Only I never woke up.
Seven years ago in the winter,
Was when you left this world.
The exact date I'll never remember,
Just that the snow covered the earth.
I never got to really know you,
And that I hate the most.
A grandfather that was so far away,
Only seeing you on holidays.
I hold tight to the memories.
Dance recitals with no lights.
The playground with swings flying high.
The slide at the fair, that Mama said was too high.
I'll never forget being with you,
You've always been one of a kind.
But things changed,
You were too sick to play.
I didn't understand what was happening.
Why wasn't your medicine helping?
You've been sick for too long.
Why weren't you getting better?
I remember Christmas,
You were covered in blankets,
Your pipe in your mouth,
When you moved it was so weak.
We came back home,
Like years before.
I didn't know it was the last time,
I would see you alive.
My dad got a call,
He left right away.
I felt scared and confused,
But I hid my emotions away.
A few days later mom told us.
I didn't know what it meant.
You were coming back, right?
This couldn't really be goodbye.
The next few days were a blur.
At the funeral I only saw your face,
Through everyones waist.
And then I knew what death was.
I couldn't stand to look at you.
That wasn't my papaw laying there.
I began to cry.
I couldn't take it any more.
I saw my mama crying,
She has never done that before.
The strongest man alive's eyes were watering up.
I just collapsed and began to cry harder.
Toward the end people were laughing,
I didn't understand why.
You were dead how could they laugh?
I wanted to yell at them.
That night I had a dream,
It let me know you were okay.
I saw your face, in a baby's face.
So I knew you really didn't die.
When I look back on the memories,
I begin to cry so many tears.
Piano keys not being played before you woke,
And sitting on your lap being tickled.
