Not Worth It

It didn't take long for me to see
you and I were never meant to be.
I fooled myself,
I think I fooled you...
I couldn't love you
because I hate the things you'd do.

You hurt me,
It killed me inside.
To see what you did,
as if you had no pride.
You took the easy way
and never looked back.
You could care less
that love with me, you'd never lack.

I know it bothered you
I worried so much,
you didn't understand
I feared I'd forever lose your touch.
You laughed it off
never tried to understand.
You couldn't stop
because you feared you'd be
less of a "man"

You said it was all for fun
and you could stop at anytime.
You swore you'd stop for me,
but that was just another lie.

I guess I wasn't worth it,
maybe that's what tore us apart
you hurt me so bad in so many ways, Why not just break my heart?

I wanted you back so bad,
why? Only God would know.
It didn't even phase you
when I'd cry I loved you so.
We could be just friends
thats all, you would say
and then you made me think...
maybe changing would be ok.

I tried to comprehend it,
I tried to convince myself it's alright
Every bodies doing it,
Why should I always do what's right?

I wanted you so bad
so maybe I could try...
but after thinking of it
all I saw was the pain in my mothers eyes.

Maybe to you it's worth it,
you never seemed to care.
When you saw you were killing me
you acted unaware.
But really whats the point?
I've been waiting for you to tell me
I could never cause so much pain,
I can't close my eyes, and pretend not to see.

I know a little fun
isn't worth so much pain...
I know I could break a heart
just to continue playing your game.
Your not worth it
I couldn't make that mistake
so I will forget about you,
my mind I won't let you overtake.

*~*Please vote and comment this, it's very personal to me and It would me a lot to me if you'd comment on my poem! It's about my ex and our relationship and how bad he hurt me doing drugs, and about my feelings I went through during the break up and how I got through it and how I now feel about the situation. I hope you can relate to this!! I think sometimes ppl don't understand how there desisions affect people and hurt them. I know a lot of ppl who don't get that and that hurts me and a lot of others. I hope you like the poem... I realize it's not the absolute best but it's very close to my heart.

thanks!!
-Mols*~*