Burning Secret - Greatest Gift

There's something that burns inside me
Begging and screaming to let you know
But I keep it locked behind closed doors
So these feelings won't be put to show

The constant pounding on my brain
Is pushing my secrecy to bust
But there's nothing I can say to you
That I consider worthy of your trust

In every conversation, in every hidden word
There's something there for you to see
But you're blind, don't know to look
And my secret beats the hell out of me

My body is tempting me to tell it
But every time, it's never quite right
So in bed each night, I conjure excuses
I fight you out of my dreams, and hold tight

You appear there in a strange figure
Depicted from my imagination
You intrigue my mouth to smile
I'm enlightened by fascination

Reality twists my arm so tightly
And gives me a beaten, angry hit
Such as when I take a razor
And make a deep, almost deadly slit

The pain is all the same, it seems
And this secret is breaking me into pieces
Sick of this twisted confusion
It's an anger that never ceases

So why don't I just tell you this?
If it's beating me senselessly to death
It's just that every time I try
It seems I'm living on my last breath

The words "I love you" so carelessly said
But now, this, my heart is enriched
And I just want these words to explain
That it's the greatest of all gifts.

- How do you tell someone you love them, when you know they don't love you back? - Thats all this poem is about, really.