My confession for my mommy

I know that you don't know me and I will admit it hurts me,
because you are my mommy,
you need to know real me!
I know that you don't know that five times i tryed to kill myself,
but someone sent God and save me from dark!
I had some scars in my hands,
but it don't hurt me,
it gave me a joy that I can feel that pain and that I can suffer a lot.
I don't know why you love him more than me,
it is so sad because I'm your only child and you need to love me,because I will always stand by you and light you a way to me!