Images

When I close my eyes at night,
you're the one I see.
Your chilling face and body,
won't stop haunting me.

When I wake in the morning,
again in my mind you appear.
I'm always edgy and scared,
my day begins and ends with fear.

Quite often during the day,
when I have a minute or two.
Somehow almost unstoppably,
I seem to think of you.

I try and keep busy,
and never say your name.
I wish I hadn't of seen you,
so that things would be the same.

And while you'd still be gone,
I wouldn't know how you looked that day.
I wouldn't have got a shock,
when I came home and found you that way.

People who I'm around,
pretend to know how I feel inside.
They think that they know why,
why I want to run away and hide.

They tell me to let go,
so that the both of us can be set free.
But how can they say that?
They didn't see you dangling from that tree.

They didn't see the expression on your face,
or the look that was in your eyes.
They weren't the ones who found you,
on the day of your demise.

They say if I let go,
then I will end up being fine.
But they don't see those images,
that send shivers down my spine.

They don't appear to realize,
that it's so much harder than it seems.
No one will ever understand me,
until they see you hanging in their dreams.

this is true. i went to my uncles place and i found him hanging off a tree outside. i struggle to deal with it and i will never ever forget how he looked.
please, please, please comment!! it means so much to me, you really have no idea!! thanks, love cim xxx