For Ian

You're not here now
I can't take this life alone much longer
I need you back here with me

My life will never be ther same
I can't trust anyone man
Not even my own father

How am I supposed to trust people?
When I think they will just leave me
Just like you did

As I sat there on that horrible night
Talking with you as what I did not know
Was your last night alive

Two hours later
36 sleeping pills and a knife
You left me forever

I know I should have never left you alone
For the longest tiem I blamed myself
But now I know

You are the one to blame
You are the one who left me!
You are the stupid teenager you couldnt take it anymore

I am not to blame
I wanted to help you
But you chose the easy way out

I will never forget that
You left me!
All I ever did was love you

Now all I can do
Is love the memories
I have of you

9 years of a great friendship
Gone...
Within minutes...

I never thought it would come to this
Seeing you just laying there
Killed me inside

I love you with all my heart
I will never forget you

RIP IAN MICHEAL 5-13-86-9-13-03