Dear God

Dear God,

No matter how hard I try,
These thoughts won't leave.
Oh God, please help me,
To you, I cannot decieve.

When is this going to get easier,
When will the pain subside?
I need some answers now,
I'm so sick of being alive.

Everyday when I awake,
The same feeling consumes my soul.
Just another day I think,
My heart will gain another hole.

I laugh and smile and pretend,
No one can know that I ache.
I must keep telling them I'm fine,
I must keep acting fake.

Oh God, why do I bother?
Why is this pen flowing in my hand,
Should I explain how I feel,
In hopes that others will understand?

What in the hell am I doing,
Please, just set me free.
No one knows who I really am,
No one including me.

Thanks,
Shalisa