I cannot define the words which seep through my mind. The words which die inside that I cannot find.
The ones I wish to realize I can say without hiding inside. I'm kept within a cell and locked away in fear. Theres a silence In which only brings the tears.
All the time iv known you and Iv loved every minute of it. I should be cut by the blade of a knife to know how I could commit it.
That deceit I have lunged at in the back of my skull. I feel so much pain that forms these many holes.
Those gaps of lies and hatred in which no care is involved. On another level Its locked away tight and can never evolve.
But it over powers me and I'm forced to do its wish. Caught by the torment by a lesser known itch.
I should die alone and not worry about the past. Maybe the world be better without me here to last.
I wish to forget all that has happened and try to move on. But the guilt which lives inside is to powerful to pawn.
Its rage devours me till none of me is left. I'm only left with nothing but darkness and silence.
Kill me and show me what you like. Try the shit i did with the knife.
Make the pain last to wards me i deserve. I wish to die inside because its all of what Ive earned.
These roots of madness are strangling my nerves. It feels like a grasp one Hercules could serve. Asphyxiation at its best. Conquering me and putting me to the test.
The test of how strong it can be to kill me the way it does. Its beaten everything inside and cut out all my love.
So now tis the end and its all finally near. My single last grain of time all dropping in its fear.
