DoEs MoM ReALly KnO?!

As I sit here obsessing
About the way that I could die
I have nothing to live for
Life seems a lie
Should I take a puncture to the heart?
Or nice and easy and cut my arms apart
Wondering if it’s true
“God do I really need to be with you?”
Friends say everything happens for a reason
Damn I feel like I have committed treason
Why is life like this for me?
Can’t you just see?
What have I done?
I have become so numb
As I bleed away the pain
And I start to go insane
The blood drips to the floor
I feel the razor come back for more
Clutching it tightly
Memories racing through my head
I’m not able to let go
And not knowing what to know
Drifting slowly away
Where darkness turns to day
Not knowing what to say
I see an object look down on me
And I speak,
“Lord I’m slipping away into darkness”
Not knowing where I am
Is this heaven?
The land of the eternally damned
Footprints retrace my mind
Father I can see you, no longer blind!
I am awaken by a disturbance
My mother picks me up
And says don’t be nervous
Before she speaks
I calmly say
“I may not be perfect,
I may not be to smart,
But I know I can win,
This battle with my heart”
Mother I have confused my steps
Knowing what is best
I know what I have done
Now I have to rest
She cry’s as I speak
And says “hunni you have dug yourself to deep”!
I shall pull you out
And help you through
You have so much to live for
So much to do
You need to understand as well
“I love you”!
Tears for fill my eyes
I feel the love again
Renewing through the times
Knowing that she mine
Now every night
Before I go to sleep
I pry and thank you lord
I no longer weep!!!!