I still love you

Why did I have to be so dumb?
I can't believe I gave you up
I was afraid to love you
Afraid that in the end
You would hurt me
So I just broke it off and walked away
It was so hurt to say goodbye
I cry and cry all night and day
I lay awake telling myself lies
I try and try not to want you
Every time I am with someone new
I try to forget about you
But in the end
I just talk and talk about you
You are always on my mind
They get upset
And always ask, Are you in love with him
I try to deny but I can’t
Everyone knows that you are the one
The one I can’t live without
I am the one who mess everything up
When I said goodbye
But I fell so hard in love with you
I’m still here missing you
But I didn’t want to hurt you
Cause you anymore pain
So I watched you move on
You have someone new
I wish I told you
You were my first love
But I let you go
And now you are happy
You are still are my best friend
But it still hurts,
Knowing I’m the one who said goodbye
Then on top I told you a lie
I told you that it wasnt you
But when it can down to it
It was you that scare me off
Because I care so much
I was afraid to let myself love
Afraid to really live my life
With the one I love
So if you want to stay with her
That’s fine with me
But just to let you know
I still love you
And I always will

*please comment on this one, this one means the most to me*