Spent the whole night together
You finally noticed the cuts and scars
But little did you know they were only half
You asked me what they were from
I didn't answer
I knew you knew
There was no point in me denying it
Making up some stupid story
I'm not going to lie
You asked me why
It made me think
Why do I cut?
Why do I feel this way?
I try so hard to be happy
But my happiness continuously fades away
So many things racing through my head
You were trying to understand
You kept asking me what was wrong
I didn't answer once again
But little did you know I wanted to tell you so badly
But the words wouldn't come
It would have been so confusing
I would have sounded dumb
So once again I ran and hid
Hid behind these walls I've built
They are now so strong
I distanced myself from you
Yet i wanted to talk so bad
But when you found out my secret
I didn't know how you would react
I'm so scared to lose you
Scared more than you could ever know
These cuts mark my skin from everytime I've given in
My past haunts me
While my future scares me
Don't want to live without you
You're the only thing I truly know
this, my secret I never wanted you to know
But I knew sooner or later you would notice
I have promised so many people I would stop
Still I keep on going
Deeper and deeper
You ask if it hurts
I answer no
I am numb to the pain now
I regret so bad ever starting
But what's done is done
I now must stop
You don't have a clue it's been over 4 months or more
Since I couldn't talk it anymore
My first time was with scissors but suddenly I grew bored
I needed something more
So I turned to a razor
It works so well
At easing this pain I have come to know so well
Still trying to figure out why
You keep asking "what's up?"
I want to tell you but I don't know where to start
Even though you're gone now I can still smell you
Still taste you
I need to tell you
But not tonight
I'm scared to face reality
Now that my secret has been revealed
