My Life

My life is a living hell
even more than you can tell
I can't sleep at night
Never seem to do anything right
I always feel so alone
Even though I have so many people around
Just trying to smile feels like mission impossible
I don't remember a time I was truly happy away from you
Wish you were here right now
Temptations so strong
I need the cold, hard touch of my good friend the blade
But I'm not going too
I saw the look in your eyes when you saw my arm
8 cuts there at the moment
But theres so many more
You never saw my wrist
The scars from countless imperfections
I hate them so much
Yet I long for more
I can't live here in this place called home
So much yelling
I go unoticed
I don't yell, I don't scream
But I wish I did
Maybe that would let the pain out
Instead of turing to the knife
people I call friends
Forever lying to me
They ask me so many questions
I don't know the answers
They're questions I ask myself
But never get an answer
When I go quiet I'm trying to figure myself out
You ask what's wrong
I don't have a clue
My life, some say I don't know how to live
Maybe I don't But I live it the way I want
The only way I know how