I can't take this anymore
I can't handle what I'm going through
Depression, it's like a monster that lives within me
Every now and then it consumes my body
Taking over my head
I'm trying to break free from it
But it doesn't want to let me go
I try to scream but no one hears
I'm hear in this life alone and no one cares
So angry I try to breath
Try to relax but hate is all I feel
You tell me it'll be fine
To think of you
I try so hard but for once I can't keep my mind on you
I need the razor, I need a knife
But I can't
Not anymore
I remember so clearly the look in your eyes
That night you found my scars
But the temptations so strong
It's the only way I know how to end this pain
I lock myself in my room
Never want to leave it again
I feel so safe
and here I won't be able to hurt you
or anyone else
I need to cut so badly
But you begged me never again
Why did I agree
I feel your pain as well as mine
I'm sorry
Now your going to check my arms
What if I cut somewhere else
I need to tonight
Please just once more
I need to say good bye to the razors I know so well
They were my best friends
Now I must leave them behind
Leave them in the past
I must walk away without a single glance back
Cause I know if I look I will run back with open arms
Then I will hurt you once again
I don't want that
I love you way too much
I did cut once more tonight
A good bye, Farewell cut
I felt the pain leave my body in the most familiar way
But that definately will be my last cut ever
Well maybe just until you're gone
Hopefully that's never
It's OK, I have something else to control now
What I eat
I haven't eaten properly in over a week
I've lost 2 kilograms
I now only weigh 43 kilograms
I sound so light
Yet I still feel fat and scared to wear those little skanky clothes
That's just not me
It's either my Weigh or my blood
**I was pretty angry when I wrote this, it's true, please comment and vote..PLEASE!!**
