Denial! (Part 72)

Someone made me realise by asking how I feel,
That they knew more about myself than I could conceal.

“Are you happy out there alone?””
If only I knew how to begin to answer,
It is a beauty to long for something so,
But also a torture to know, eventually,
I must let go.
There Won’t be any pain, just an emptiness inside.

“Do you think about yourself anymore?”
I reflect what It is that makes me miss you,
If I’ll feel the same for the rest of my life,
Whether I could become so much, that,
You’d be mine.
Then my heart could beat, freedom spread its wings.

“Don’t you ever miss that girl?”
When I lie my head down trying not to think about it at night
Every minute that Im alone and peace settles inside,
Despite all the time that has past, to say no,
Is a beautiful lie.
To be honest, I don’t want to answer that question tonight...

Then she asked...
“Are you alright?”

But silence,
was the confession reply.