I Give Up

I give up trying to fight against you
For I’m broken and I’m weak
Whatever I say means nothing at all
Don’t know why I even speak

I give up trying to stick up for myself
When you just put me down
I can no longer force this fake smile
So I’ll wear this genuine frown

I give up trying to tell myself again
That you do really care
That you just have a weird way of showing it
And that’s why I’m unaware

I give up trying to make this all better
Because really I can’t do a thing
And no to be honest I don’t have control over
Depression and the pain it brings

Cos’ I've been trying to pretend that I’m OK
Just so you’ll let me stay
Where I should be, at home with everyone
And not in a clinic far away

But even I give up with that
For that’s the place you want me to be
In a hospital, with other young people
Just the same as me

In a place where I don’t trouble you
With the pain I don’t even show
In a place where if I attempt suicide
You don’t have to know

I don’t really know what to say at this point
I guess I’ll just let you win
So many things have happened lately
And I've just given in…

Any comments would mean a lot as always x