This time of year is so surreal
with all the feelings its making me feel
memories from the last year come flooding back
suddenly my world seems bleak and black
i was hurt real bad about a year ago
and with how i acted some may think I'm a h*e
but how could i be when i was hurt so bad
thinking about it makes me so very sad
every breath i take feels like my last
and its all thanks to my past
holding in my hand a long sharp knife
how am i ever to get on with my life
thoughts start rushing through my head
it reminds me of how much my heart really bled
but no this is so wrong
i will stand tall and try to be strong
this isn't Worth ending my life for
I'm not ready to exit in the giant golden door
one day I'll be rescued from all this pain
and i will feel some sort of Sane
this time of year reminds me of you
thats why i hate it
but i will get through
