Back then nothing turned out good.
Maybe that's why I had such a bad childhood.
At times I wish that I would have died.
There are nights that I cried.
Nobody was there to wipe those tears from my eyes.
Back then nobody heard my silent cries.
You were always drunk on the couch.
Back then I had to much to let out.
I looked at you with a lot of doubt.
All I wanted was something you couldn't give.
All I wanted was a life you couldn't live.
You drank your sorrows away.
I was just a kid you never listened to what I had to say.
You did that night after night.
And the thing that tore me up is when you and him used to fight.
I tried to stop you.
But I was only five there was nothing I could do.
I think of that and tears come to my eyes.
And some nights I start to cry.
I cry cause you couldn't change.
Now I find that strange.
I don't know why you couldn't do it for me.
I don't know why I couldn't see.
This coming onto my life.
Your patience was as sharp as a knife.
It was edgy.
It was sketchy.
You couldn't hold me in your arms at night.
You couldn't tell me it would be all right.
You couldn't keep me like you said you would.
You wouldn't stop drinking even if you could.
Now I set my feelings free.
You chose your budweiser over me.
Your only child was taken away from you.
And now there's nothing we can do.
To change what happened then.
I think of it time and time again.
I remember when you said you would always be there for me.
But now that's hard to see.
You still have a beer in hand.
And now alone I stand.
Without my mom in my memories.
Now the times have changed.
Everything has reaaranged.
Time has got me here.
And my love for you is gone and I made that clear.
You keep drinken that beer.
When your gone I won't shed a tear.
You brought this on yourself.
Now look at the cards you dealt.
You poisoned my world.
You took me away from my two little girls.
My two sisters I never see.
That's what gets to me.
I can't watch them grow up anymore.
My love for you is dead on the floor.
But this has all happened by your fate.
Now it's our memories that I hate...
