Angels

Flying with the angels
I wish I could be.
I look in the mirror
And I don't see me.

"No matter how far"
You always told me
"We will always be together."
I believed your words and thought
They were true.
Nobody told me that it would be you.

Your with the angels now
And I won't be.
Joining you forever it would seem.
The razor blade quivers and
My hands seem to fail.

I know you wouldn't want me
To set sail.
Nobody knows what it's like.
To know I could have stopped it
And it would be alright.

Thinking of your smile
And the way you laughed.
It always seems like it would last.
Now you're gone and I am here.
In my heart I know that you're flying right next to her.
Holding her hand telling her she's ok.
You'll never leave her ever again.

But what about me?
Don't I get some say?
I really would want to know
What came over you that day?
Was it him?
Or was it her?

I'll never know till
I'm flying with you and the angels.