Hate me or love me

I try my best
to put on a front.
I can do it well
hide my feeling and become numb.

But when I am alone
I cry myself to sleep
I try to make up excuses
Excuses for what you have done

You make me feel bad
with just one look
You can off set a perfect day
With just one look

I've caught you looking at me...
When you think I am not looking
Then your eyes are soft and kind.
I don't know what you are thinking

All this changes when you see me looking
Then your eyes aren't kind...Your glaring
What are you thinking...What are you hiding?

Please tell me cause your causing me pain
Make up your mind please
Hate me or love me?!