I WONDER IF.........

I wonder if heaven would accept me not by natural causes
by suicide
my life's in misery please god help me
because I've tried
hopefully you will agree
knife to my chest
this is my health plea
cause I'm depressed
please don't disagree
cause theres nothing to my life i cant see
I'm blind
you've made plenty sacrifice
why not me
I'm bleeding now
as i softly cry
and on the living room floor i shall die
wonder if I'm going to heaven hopefully so i can see you and be happy again and no worries
cause i wonder if heaven will except me not by natural causes by suicide so i can be me again and see the light and regain strenght i have lost through battles so i wonder if .............