I Want You Dead

They say two wrongs don’t make a right
But right wasn’t want I wanted
I wanted revenge for that night
For all the hurt you caused
For making sure, I was too weak to fight.

You robbed me of my dignity
You stole my self respect
There’s nothing left of me
I have nothing left to lose
I have even lost my sanity

Falling deeper always, so bitter and broken
I pray I hurt you, like you hurt me
And I hope it leaves you gaping open
I hope everyone sees what you are like
That it was a lie, every word you’ve ever spoken

It was rape, in every sense of the word
You raped me of my pride, my virginity
And raped me of the chance to be heard
But why do I defend you, when the subject arises …
That’s what I find so absurd

But call me a psycho … this is going to end
I have decided I will live
But you must pay for acting like a friend,
Then hurting me so brutally
And making sure I could never mend.

And when you die, I hope it is alone
I hope the poison makes you feel so sick
I hope you are left completely on your own
Just how you left me
When you just walked off home.

I will feel no guilt, only satisfaction
It is justice, pure and simple
I’m sick of trying to find a distraction
I just want you dead.

© Copyright Sharon Ardern 2004