Behind

No matter what I do
You tell me I can make it through
But what if tonight that isn't true
With a knife in one hand
A pen in the other
Paper in front of me as I start to write this note

"I guess I should tell you farewell
Bid you all good bye
Say it's not your fault but I know that won't make a difference
This will still make you cry

I tried to so hard to make it through
Tried hard to fight the pain I feel
But it all just kept getting worse
I lost control, didn't know how to deal

You all told me you loved me everyday
But no matter what you say I still feel alone
Nothing anyone can do will change that
And the things I've done you can't condone

I'm sorry for the hurt I've caused
The pain I've put you through the past few years
So many scars
So many tears"

I don't know what else to say
I'm sorry my heart goes out to you all
This is my final farewell
I'm going to cut my soul free tonight
I'm sorry for the mess I'll leave
I'm sorry for everything
But my life was a living hell
And I dream to leave the world behind
So far behind