Unfair

Its really unfair
For a girl of my age
To be so mad
and cry in my room with rage

I have to pick
Between my boyfriend
And the boy I love
My heart is going to be hard to mend

I love my x so so much
For me he is the one boy
But I think to him
I was his fun toy

The boyfriend I have
Is o so sweet
A boy like him
Is pretty hard to beet

It’s just hard for me
Cuz I love the one that’s gone
I remember the nights
When it was just he and I on my lawn

I want him back
But I can’t do that to Robert
But if I don’t do something
I might get more hurt

What should I do?
Please help me god
What’s wrong with me?
Is my love life that odd?