My Everything Is Gone!

Late at night I sit awake,
No one knows but me,
The pain I feel is back again,
Sometimes during the day,
In the brightness of the sun,
It seems like my worries are over,
A brand new life begun,
But then at night I see truth,
The worse is yet to come,
I hate life, I hate myself,
No one loves me, No one ever could,
I want to die, I want it now!
I just want this hell to end someway,Somehow,
I sit in the cold tile,
Shivering and crying too,
Is there still a chance? Or am I just in denial?
People move one and all things change,
But how can I fight the emptiness that brings?
I wish someone would give me back my will to live,
I wish someone would give me my much needed love,
The doctors say depression,
My mom says "teenage anxiety",
I don't know what to call it except hell,
Release me shining angel, Take me far from here,
I sit here and think...
Do you ever think of me?
How can you act like I mean nothing to you?
When you mean everything to me?