Daydream

[Thinking]

[Daydream...]
I see myself from above,
fully clothed.
My favorite clothes,
I'm laying in the bath.

The water is red and
my clothes are barely visible.
My wrists have
dark red lines going across them.

I see myself from above,
one a stretcher,
racing through a white corridor.
A beeping and a flat-line.

I am sleeping on a bed,
still in the hospital,
bandages on my forearms,
I can barely move.

I see myself from behind,
at the computer screen:
still alive...-
I tell my friends.

Some seemed worried,
others afraid.
No one knew quite what to say,
I hope I woke them up.

I don't really know what happens after that.
I can't seem to dream in straight lines.
But, one thing I could see very clearly,
No one ever really treated me the same.
I was always suspect.

(My eyes open)
(earlier that day)
[Daydream...]
Wow, I can't think of what to say.
I hardly even see her during the day.
I don't know her very well,
but she has the most beautiful smile...

I've danced with her,
The last few dances.
I guess I've known her for years,
But I've never actually met her.

She's different,
this I know.
Her smile is as bright as Heaven,
I think I'll tell her today...