I Love You Papa

So many times have I sat and wondered “Why?”
Why did God take you away from us like that?
Making you suffer for all those long months
Before He finally brought you home to Him
I’ll never understand why He would do that to His own child

All your life you dedicated your time to spreading His word
Traveling all around the country with your family in tow
From town to town you went and spoke of His teachings
Telling how God forgives all no matter what your sin is
How God loves all His children no matter what race, colour or ethnicity

I always knew you had cancer but you always beat it
Until finally the doctors said that they no longer could do anything
Mum and Dad sat us down and said you only had a year to live
That you might not live long enough to see Christmas
It never hit me until I saw you during those final weeks

We all watched as over time you slowly faded away
As the cancer slowly took over making its new home inside you
Your body became so thin and your skin turned yellow
Soon you couldn’t do anything for yourself not even the simplest task
It hurt me so much to see this great man that I love dying this way

Christmas that year was hard all you could do was sit in your chair
You probably didn’t even know what was going on around you
We all tried to stay strong for Grans sake, I still don’t know how she did it
I can’t imagine what it would be like to watch your husband slowly die
And to be so helpless, unable to make him better, unable to fix it all

If only I had of known that would be the last day I’d see you alive
I would have given you a big kiss and hug and said my goodbyes
But I didn’t know, I thought that I would see you again
Even though I knew it probably wouldn’t be long before you left us
I was still so hopeful that one last time would God allow me to see you

That sorrowful night that you left us I prayed
I prayed that God would make all your pain and suffering disappear
I don’t know what I was hoping he’d do because I knew he couldn’t cure you
But I never in my life thought that my prayers would do this
That he would take you to his kingdom as his way of ending your pain

At your funeral I couldn’t stop crying, I wanted to yell, to ask God “Why?’
Why did he take this wonderful and loving man from our lives?
I need you here with me to laugh and play together, we all need you
It’s not going to be the same at Christmas, who’s going to say grace before we eat?
It won’t be the same at family gatherings without you there with us

But I know your up in heaven watching over all of us, keeping us safe
I know you’re not suffering anymore and that you’re with your brothers and sisters
But I still miss you so much and even though I knew it was inevitable
I never knew it would hurt inside so much and bring tears to my eyes even now
So until we meet again always remember I love you with all my heart and miss you

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Dedicated to Colin Francis Broughton who died December 26, 2003
I love you Papa

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