Emotions Out Of Whack

Written at 10:09am couldn\'t sleep all night without writing this but its so jumbled up, I don’t know if anyone could follow along and that is why the title is what it is.
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Family So Cold-hearted
Makes My Pain So Imparted.
Friends Helpless Always In Need
Never Once Cared For Me....
Hopes And Dreams I Cherish
I Am Letting Them All Perish
As I Lay On Back And Watch The Life I Had
Has Now Became An Interesting Fad.
I’m Dying For An Escape Of This Life
To Extinct My Every Bit Of Pain And Strife.
Smiles Of The Day Turn To Tears Of Night
Searching Around For God’s Heavenly Light.
Knives Held In My Back By Friends I Called Love
When Really I Did Not Ever Get To See What A Real Friend Was Made Of...
Soul-Searching, Helpless Nights, Dreams Fading...
Speaking Of Love When I Am Really Hating.
Dying Inside With A Glow On My Face
So No One Will Attempt To Worry, I Mean, Just Incase They Decide For Once To Give A Damn
To See Behind The Masks Of Who I Really Am.
Broken Wings Shatter On Cold Ground As I Fall
Making Me Feel Ever So Small...
Reflection Peers Out From It’s Shell
Making Heaven Die And I Am Going To Hell
For You See A Beautiful Soul
But You Never Saw What I Behold...
The Shit I’ve Pulled, The Pain I’ve Caused,
The Pain I Tried To Ignore But I Only Paused...
Moments In Time Ticking On By
And I Still Won’t Let You See Behind My Eyes...
Faith Dying, Hope Shattered, Dreams Artificial
Yet I Am Your Inspiration And Guardian Angel...
Watch Me Die In Front Of Your Eyes
Then Maybe You Could Realize...
My Pain Is Quite So Real
But You Never Took The Time To See How I Feel.
Heather Michelle Craig

**and i dont know why this won't let me post it on anything but slang but okay**??