Leave Me Be...

For dad,

Uncovered the truth dad?
Seen a scab?
A new one on my wrist,
Was actually quite bad.

Seen one cut dad?
Just one, all you've seen,
Ignored the other scars,
Not sure what it means?

Sorry are you dad?
Sad and confused?
Worried about,
What tool i used.

Leave it to me dad,
I won't do it there anymore,
Cause you know to look there,
I'm knocking on heaven's door.

I'm banging at the gates dad,
The gates to hell,
It took you this long to find out,
I hid the scars well.

You don't understand dad,
Confusion covers you,
Behind my mask dad,
Theres more than a few.

Scars i mean dad,
You didn't even look,
You didn't see my poems dad,
You didn't see my book.

Did you ever see dad?
The folder under my bed,
Did you wonder what was inside?
But chose not to look instead.

You don't pry dad,
Into things that aren't yours,
You don't see me cry dad,
Behind closed doors.

I didn't want you to know dad,
See or find out,
I didn't want you to find,
What i thought about.

You think i want to kill myself dad,
God knows that I've tried,
But it doesn't matter anymore,
Inside I've already died.

Please leave me be dad,
Try to see,
I want you to go away,
Not try and help me.

Leave it now dad,
It's beyond your aid,
You can't change me,
And my heart you can't save.

This is just a few thoughts dad,
More where that came from,
My advice to you dad,
Go and have some fun.

I'm still going to cut dad,
Nothing you can do,
To stop me from cutting,
This is my mask, don't look through.

Leave me now dad,
I'm dealing on my own,
Me and my friends dad,
I only need us, I've grown.

Now you see dad,
Blades they saved me,
Now you leave dad,
Just leave me be...

*All comments and votes greatly appreciated as always*