Listen

I try to speak
And tell you what I feel
But while I am talking
I’m not convinced it’s real

I think you’re listening
But I’m not sure
Your eyes seem to wander
And stare at the floor

I pour out my soul
Rip open my heart
But half the time
I don’t know where to start

Once I’m done
You say you understand
And try to help
By holding my hand

But what pains me most
Is when you ask me once more
Eyes still staring
At the floor

Have you listened?
Have you heard?
I told you last time
I gave you my word

Were you paying attention?
Or was it just an act
Did you take it all in?
Or think of it as a fact

I let you know
What I feel
Told you truly
What was real

But you keep asking
Time and time again
I thought tou were listening
I thought you were my friend

My words haven’t changed
My feelings are still the same
I hope you understand
That this is not a game

So why do I bother?
Why should I care?
Why do I keep telling you?
If you’re not really there