More pain

most of these poems are really old just i finally got around to submitting them onto the website. Yeah the ones that are on here are pretty self explanatory but the ones I havent got too yet are the ones that have more meaning too them. I have writing poems since 2002 and mainly its all from my relationships with boyfriends, Ive had all together around 40 boyfriends my entire life and I wish I could take most of them back. I used too think that was my only way to deal with my problems was to write poems too my boyfriends but now I have this amazing boyfriend named Josh and hes a year younger than me but he has taught me so much about myself and life I know theres really not that much in life to appreciate me but even the little things I used to not even care for I do now because of him. He has showed me so much and just really brought me out and made me a better person and just made me feel more confident in myself and how I felt about a lot of things. Most people think that my peoms arent deep and yes I admit the ones I have submitted right now arent that great and dont really mean much to young people but believe me those are the first poems I started writing. This poem that I wrote was about a past relationship I recently lost with someone I truely loved sincerely and yes I know it seems awkward to love at this age but we were going out about 9 months and he meant the world too me but now I look back and realize we were better of being friends. I found the perfect guy now and I can see that my feelings for him really inspire me to think positive about everything around--I love you Josh....No one else