Moment to live again

Losing my mind
Crying inside
No where to go
I have no more control
Every thing's just fading away or maybe it's just me
I want to escape this world despite it's meaning
Not breathing Wont take anymore demands
Suffocating to the fact I'm not strong enough to face that no one understands
Perfection the God given fantasy
So numb you dont know you've hit the fall of reality
Stories of heart break and tears of depression
crimson tears cries of pain hear my life confession
Desperate to look up when my head hangs down
A pressure i can grip it's what I've been looking for it's what I've found
Gone i wont look back
the past so dark with chills that run down my spine
these scars run deep but I'll learn to forget
this moment to live again is finally mine

I wrote this poem almost 2 weeks ago when i stopped self harm.....i started again i guess the moment to live again doesn't last very long...cuz once your world goes black it feels like you can never go back.I hope thats not true

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