Just Fooling Around

I thought we were just playing I thought it was just a joke.
As I saw your hands reach for me I laughed,
until you started to choke me.
I thought we were just fooling around.
I told you to stop,
as I tried to push and scratch your face to get you off of me.

You held me down and slapped me around a couple of times.
When I looked in your eyes I saw such anger.
Anger to defeat.
I began to cry.
You realized what you had done, "Sorry." is what you said.
The pain in me from me never seems to end.
I never thought it would come to this,
upon my tears you left a kiss.
Getting on your knees
swearing to god that you never meant to harm me.
You promised no more fighting not even playing.
So I forgave you and fell deep into your love again.

Then a month later you saw me at the mall with a couple of friends.
You came up to me screaming and you yanked my hair to come with you.
My friends knew what was going on.

You shoved me in the car and told me not to move.
Then you drove off with me in your trunk.
On the way to my grave,
I heard you praying to the lord that you were sorry for what you've done and for what you about to do.

The car all of a sudden stopped.
I was so scarred.
Covered in my own vomit.
All this shame I cannot bare.
I came back to him thinking he cared.
I said a little prayer and told the lord that I'd meet him in a few.
My love came to open the trunk and threw me onto the street.
I tried to run but you caught me ,
then you started to beat me.

You hit me so hard I could barely breath
with my eyes so puffy and blue.
I saw blood all around me,
just not noticing it was my own.
I heard my love say that he loved me and he was saving my soul for him to keep and for no one else to have.
I hear him say one of his little prayers now.
I begin to close my eyes peacefully.
I heard a sound like a sword sound when your fighting in the war.
But it was a knife that he took from his belt.
He stabbed it through my heart,
I cried and screamed NNNNNOOOOOOOO!

I'm losing my breath it's going short!
I never knew he would go this low.
I hear him faintly now.
As I fall into internal sleep.
I'll miss my family lord,
please send them my love.
And please forgive my dear darling,
for he knows not of what he does.
FOREVER GOODNIGHT!