I want so much

I want to shake him
I want to hit him
I want to tell him I hate it
I want to tell him how it hurts.

I want liquor to taste better
I want cuts to go deeper
I want them to heal fast
I want there to be no proof

I want you to understand
I want you to cry
I want you to wipe that grin off your face
I want you to change

I want so much
I will never get any of it
Liquor burns, and skin is thick
He won’t listen, and you just keep on smiling.