Shower my pain

I thank God I'm barley promised today
I might not see tomorrow
And tonight I'll pray
That the Lord will end my sorrow

I need someone to catch my teardrops fall
And no-one wants to
No one cares for me at all
Because it might hurt you

And nobody wants to comfort your cries
These days people wipe there own eyes
And these days everyones conceited
It might be in ,but not what i believe in

To be loved you'll be hurt
I'm not loved ,but pain lurks
I'm not dead ,but real near
And I'll die with no fear

My good Lord please take my pain
Take my life Lord i live in shame
I do not deserve to praise your name
And when it comes to his death I'm to blame

Guilty, it was murder, because of me
I should have heard her, but i didn't so don't let me free
Lock me up don't let me out
I belong in jail not a house

I don't deserve heaven ,but too scared of hell
I should have stood strong ,but instead i fell
Drugs got a hold of me and that little boys dead
I just don't know what was going through my head

And it makes me think...

If i wernt high
Would he be alive?
Would he have survived?
If i hadn't smoked the pipe
He'd have life
and i wouldn't need this knife
To take mine

Guilt wont let me go , I'm held down
I try to smile but just frown
Because i don't wanna live tomorrow
Lord will you ever end my sorrow?

Abandoned here i am
And abandoned i stand
Forever i shall be
Locked up with no key

In a prison of guilt and it hurts so bad
His family hurts and its too damn sad
A promise unkept cost a life
Soon two once i get my knife

plz vote/ comment on my poem thanx its definitly not my best ,but well vote/ comment anyways i love ya'll g' bye