Longing for love

Chose to stay single for many, many years. I pushed away everyone, I cried a million tears.

Held off on having a family so I could wait for the perfect love.
I refused to take second best, I wanted him heaven sent from up above.

I broke a lot of hearts of people fond of me, just so I could wait around for a man I would love endlessly.

I spent some time alone and accomplished all my goals. I thought that's what I needed to do before I gave away my soul.

I met a lot of challenges, I looked fear in the eye. And then I often wondered why love kept passing by.

I found my Mr. Right and I agreed to wed. It didn't take very long for me to feel like I was dead.

This marriage is the worst love I have ever had, so distant and so icy, I am so messed up in my head.

Do I stay here for my little girl who loves her daddy so or do I look above it all and let my feelings show?

A lot of disappointment is filling up my days but I just cannot find the strength to get up and walk away.

So each day I wake up with a smile upon my face because of the little girl who fills the empty space.

For this little angel, I would do anything, I give up hope for happiness so she has everything.

She has all that she could hope for, she has more than I ever had. For even though I am not happy, she still has her Dad.

I cannot compete with the one true love of his life. I am not the one that he wanted as his wife.

That girl is long gone and his heart went with her too. I am the next best thing of the love that he once knew.

So we live as friends, if you would even call it that. The man I try to love each day has nothing to give back.

What goes around will come around, as I know that today. I just hope that once again true love will come my way!