Former Self

What has become of me
Ive lost my former self
Ive become a loner
I turn when others try to help

I wish things would change
And go back to the way they were
But Ive been like this for to long
My former self has become a blur

I once only felt happiness
Now all I feel is pain
I want it all to end
Before I bleed again

You all think I'm ok
But these smiles are a disguise
The truth is hiding deep in my soul
And can only be seen through my eyes