Battle

When I stand back and look at myself
I want to break down and cry
When someone comments on my weight
Its hard not to want to die

I take the pain out on myself
For weeks I hardly eat
The battle against my body's too much
Its a monster I cant defeat

Slipping my fingers down my throat
Letting all my uglyness flow out
I know I shouldnt feel this way
In my mind there's so many doubts

Everywhere I turn I see skinny pretty girls
Society is screwing with my head
I could scream and throw myself at walls
But i escape within myself instead

All the things Ive done to myself
It hasnt helped my weight
I hate the person I've become
I'd do anything to be a size eight