Forever Free

Can’t express these feelings,
It feels so numb,
There is no reason,
For me to feel glum,

Except for the fears,
Of this new start,
And the worrying,
That from my baby I’ll part,

Ten million other things,
Some clear, some unknown,
God I don’t understand this,
The way I have grown,

Why did you make me change?
And relive past memories,
Over and over again,
The things that hurt me,

You drove me to cutting,
I was never strong enough,
To hold it all back,
Wipe the tears with my cuff,

Blood slowly dripping,
The picture is in my head,
I remember so clearly,
My wishing to be dead,

I remember having to explain,
Make up excuses,
Having to say things about cats,
Things so stupid and useless,

Why did you choose to make me?
Make me live like that,
God I wish,
I could take the cuts back,

But I can’t,
And there is nothing I can do,
To erase the memories,
To stop them leaking through,

My star helped me,
He brought me smiles,
That no one else could,
He moved me on miles,

I got so much better,
Now it has come to this,
I’m sitting here scared,
Of losing my bliss,

I don’t want to loose it all,
All that I love so much,
But if I have had my time,
I’m gonna have to give it up,

I ask you to please give mercy,
On this poor little girl,
The one who was upside down,
In the normal little world,

Please leave her happy,
Leave her like she is,
God if you do no more,
Please do this,

My four best friends,
I can’t afford to loose,
For if I do,
I will suffer from blues,

Please hear my prayer,
And take mercy,
On this little girl,
Who longs to be forever free.

*All votes and comments greatly appreciated as always.*